Adjustment today

I had my second band adjustment today.  I got 3.2 cc the first time and Dr. M said that was very aggressive and today would just be a “fine tuning” adjustment.  Everything went really well.  There was no gross fluid this time.  He pulled the screen up to where I could see and showed me how the contrast went through the band then slowed as he added more saline.  I got 2.5 cc today, for a total fill of 5.7 cc.  I have the AP Large 14 cc band.  I’m not hurting as much today as last time, thankfully.  I had a little chicken broth for lunch and was actually full.  I love that feeling.  I’m having a small container of sugar free cherry jello as I type this.  I think I’ll have cream soup when I get home from work tonight. 

When Dr. M came into the room with me, he told the tech, “Jaime does everything she is supposed to and she has had great success already.”  That made me feel really good.  I’ve been paranoid that Dr. M, like all doctors I’ve encountered in the last 10 years or so (except Dr. S, my GYN) would think I lacked self-control, willpower, etc.  I did follow my pre-op and post-op diets as instructed.  I will admit though, I don’t consider this a “diet.”  If I want something, I eat it.  I just don’t eat it in the quantities I used to.  If I have a craving for chocolate, I will either eat one or two little pieces of chocolate or even just a sugar free pudding or fudge bar (35 cal Blue Bunny no sugar added–they are great!).  I’ve had bread 2 times and I’ll eat it in the future if it agrees with me.  The kids got free Pizza Hut coupons for reading so we had pizza last week.  I ate *gasp* 2 pieces of thin crust pepperoni–but before I was banded, I would’ve eaten 5-6 PLUS breadsticks and maybe even some wings.  I absolutely refuse to go ultra low carb like some doctors want, and fortunately Dr. M hasn’t given me that restriction.  I was rather discouraged last week because I was at a plateau so it was wonderful to see Dr. M and hear him say such great things about me not once but twice!

I did get a little upset while waiting for my turn for an adjustment.  Dr. M schedules batch adjustments on Monday mornings so when I got there, there were about 5-6 others waiting to have one also.  I was absolutely amazed by some of the people who were going in there because they seem so THIN!  They are obviously success stories!  Anyway, I had to be there an hour early to register and that ended up taking all of 5 minutes so I had to sit and wait for a while.  While I was waiting, another of Dr. M’s patients was there with her mother.  The patient went into the room and her mother started talking to the lady next to her, who did not have a band (the older lady asked if she’d had it and she said no…how embarrassing IMO).  Anyway, the woman started going on and on, quite loudly, about how big her daughter had been, how big her granddaughter already was and then said, “I just don’t understand how someone could let theirself get that big.”  I was fuming.  First of all, she’s sitting in a hallway with a half dozen other people who “let themselves” get that big and opted for the Lap Band.  Ugh, I HATE that attitude.  I didn’t say, I think I’ll let myself get fat and weigh 350 lbs and get surgery.  I have been obese since I was 8-9 years old.  Yeah, I ate too much/the wrong things and I didn’t exercise, but that happens to plenty of people and they don’t end up at 350 lbs.  How could I go months without gaining an ounce then suddenly gain 30 lbs in a month?  Something was seriously messed up in my body.  I’m not going to make excuses for myself, believe me.  But ugh, that just set me off today and made me so mad.  People just don’t think before they speak.  I hope that lady’s foot was low fat because she had it in her mouth today.