Baby update!

I saw my OB today and it went well.  Well, parts of it. The important part–the baby–all is well.  I didn’t get an ultrasound picture today (boo!), but s/he looked great, bouncing all around and growing well.  The kids had a snow day so they got to see their new sibling today.

So the not so good stuff.  BP was a little high–140/88.  It has been perfect when I’m checking here at home, plus I was a combination of nervous, pissed, and running late because of the weather, so I hope it was just a fluke.  PLUS, they took my BP right after weighing me, when I found out that I’ve gained NINE pounds in TWO WEEKS.  ACK!  WTF?  I knew this was going to be a problem, just not that much of a problem.  I am hungry all.the.time.  I can’t get a handle on it at all, and I’m eating very badly.  It is like I have no band.  I’m keeping a food diary for Dr. M, who I have to see again next Monday.  He wants to consult the nutritionist to make sure I’m getting enough and don’t need an unfill.  *sigh*  I’m truly embarrassed to show him this food diary.  I’m prepared to beg for a small fill if I have to.  I’m obviously getting more than enough to gain this much weight.  I need to get back on track, but it is really hard when I am just hungry all the time.     I feel like such a failure.

My Secret

Sorry it has been a while since I updated.  Everything is going smoothly.  I have an OB appointment tomorrow morning so I’ll update more on baby things then.

To the topic at hand…

Recently I’ve received several PMs on LBT asking, “What’s your secret?”  Obviously I’ve done something magical to cause me to lose so much weight so quickly, right?  There must be some piece of advice that I can give to others that will save them time and effort, some little piece of the puzzle that their surgeon forgot to mention.  Well, here it is…

I have NO secret.  I haven’t done anything special.  I have simply changed my eating habits and worked my band.  If you’re looking for some piece of advice along the lines of “eat whatever you want, but just do _______” (insert some random crazy practice), it isn’t coming from me. 

Maybe I’m just hormonal, given my current state.  I’ve been reading a lot on LBT and it is just so irritating.  People want the band but they don’t want to make an effort.  Then when you are successful, you are treated like shit and you just don’t understand how haaaaard it is and you were never on a pre-op liquid diet starving your ass off, and you were never in Bandster Hell, and you’ve never needed a fill so bad, you couldn’t stand it.  Nobody says these things to me over there because I rarely ever post, but I see a quite a few posters at goal who are routinely raked over the coals because they don’t coddle the newbies and pat their backs and tell them it’s ok to cheat, it was just one time…or two times…or ten times…it’ll be ok.  Yes, you made a mistake, but you pick yourself back up and learn from it.  Don’t keep doing it over and over again and then wonder why other people are losing faster than you.

Ok well I should probably end this rant now because I could seriously go on and on forever.  Just remember–those who have lost over 100 lbs haven’t lost it with sheer luck–they’ve all worked really freaking hard to do it, myself included.  I don’t even consider myself a success since I have so far to go after the baby comes.  I look at some of the others on LBT and I’m in freaking awe of them because they look so amazing and have done so well.  I strive to be one of them and would hope that people would wake up and use those people as examples instead of trying to tear them down to make themselves feel better about their issues.