Update

Someone asked how I’m doing so I wanted to post an update since it has been a little while.

In a word, I’m struggling. Emotionally, weight wise, everything. I’m eating crap, I know. I just don’t really care. Well, I do care. But I don’t know if I am even capable of getting back into this weight loss thing. My head has to be in the game and it just isn’t. There are so many reasons for me to keep losing, not the least of which is so I can be healthier to attempt another pregnancy. I also know that my sweet baby girl wouldn’t want to be the reason her mommy falls apart like this.

I just don’t know how to do it. I don’t know how to lift myself up and find the strength. Sometimes I wish I was one of those people that can’t eat when they are depressed. Instead, I am the complete opposite. I eat everything, I crave junk, I have no off switch.

Please keep praying for me. Send me some words of wisdom. Something.

I go to the surgeon for my post-op on my gallbladder and I do not even want to see the look on his face when he sees that I’ve gained since I last saw him. I’m so ashamed.

Home

Surgery went well. It took about 30 minutes and was a very easy surgery. Dr. M said that my gallbladder was really nasty, full of stones and sludge and very inflamed. I’m a little sore, but on minimum pain medication and doing well. I didn’t even get wheeled out of the hospital–I walked. I go back to work on Monday even.

Thanks for the thoughts and prayers.

Surgery tomorrow

I have my gallbladder surgery tomorrow. Dr. M will be the surgeon. I hope I feel better after this. I will update when I get home. Keep me in your prayers.

Gallbladder

I found out yesterday that I have to have my gallbladder removed. Tuesday night (well, actually very early Wednesday morning) I went to the ER in extreme pain in my chest and back and I was really nauseated. They gave me some Zofran and Dilaudid, then did blood work and a CT scan. The CT isn’t usually good for diagnosing gallbladder problems, but it picked up some kind of “matter” in there. I called Dr. M’s office and they sent me right over for an ultrasound yesterday. When I went by the office to get the order, I talked to Dr. M for a few minutes. He said it definitely needs to come out. He wanted to get me in TODAY! I was like, um yeah, how about next week? LOL So I go in sometime next Thursday, April 9th, for the surgery. He didn’t seem too surprised at all that this is happening. I guess I’m in a high risk category, times two, with fast weight loss and just having a baby.

I’m done asking, what’s next. I’m now just anticipating the next crappy thing that could happen. I am scared to death to have surgery and completely freaked out. I’m also still having some pain, though not nearly as bad because I’m eating very low fat, bland foods. I guess the bright side of this is that it will help me get back on track food wise. LOL