Finally

I’m losing consistently again. At one point a few weeks ago, I saw 270 on the scale (and almost had a heart attack). Today I was 262. I’ve been consistently around 267 and the 270 was most likely a fluke because it was only a day or two. So I’m counting this as a 5 pound loss. I’d love to be back down to my lowest weight by the time I see Dr.M again in August. I briefly got down to 242-243, but that was a couple of days right around when I first got pregnant and was too nauseous to eat much. My lowest consistent weight was 245-247, so I’d like to be back in that range. I go back to see Dr. M. on August 5th, so that gives me a little over five weeks. That’s a pretty lofty goal, so realistically I’ll be ok with being around 252 at that point. That’s 2 lbs a week. Before I got pregnant, I was losing 3-4 lbs a week pretty consistently. I don’t know if my body can kick back in at that rate, but we’ll see.

It’s been a while

Well I’m here and still alive. Life has been crappy and I just haven’t had much to say. I’ve realized, though, that this blog is a big part of my support and motivation. I need to get back into the habits that I formed last year when I was successfully losing weight.

I saw Dr. M. a couple of weeks ago. I gained 4 lbs from the last visit which was in April. It could have been way worse, I know. My band has controlled my intake somewhat. However, after living with this band for 16 months, I know how to eat around the band. Food is my comfort. I feel so empty and I know that I’m trying to fill that hole with food. That only makes me feel worse because I do not want to gain the weight back. It depresses me even more to step on the scale and see the number creeping up every time.

This week, I’ve lost 2 lbs or so. I’m pleased with that and I want to keep going. I just need to control myself and stop eating crap. If I don’t buy it, I won’t eat it, so I need to stop buying it. And tell my husband to stop buying it. He’s an enabler. He wants me to feel better so he does what he can to try to make me feel better.

I don’t have any recent pictures of myself, but I will share a picture of my new tattoo. It’s on my left ankle/calf and I love it.