Struggling

October 19, 2008 at 10:28 pm 4 comments

That’s me right now–struggling.  It seems like everything in my life is going to crap and I’m completely unable to control it.  After my adjustment last week, I had restriction for…about a day.  I’m not losing, but at least I’m not gaining.  I’m just stuck.  I’m hungry all.the.time.  I’m calling Dr. M’s office tomorrow to see about getting another adjustment, but I’m not sure what they’ll say this quickly.  My next appointment isn’t until December 3rd.  I did buy an elliptical machine this week and I’ve been working out on it daily.  Yesterday, I walked and did the elliptical.  It’s challenging.  The first day, all I could manage was 5 minutes.  Tonight, I did 20 minutes.  It’s progress.  I guess if I am going to eat everything in sight, I can at least work off some extra calories.

I work in a financial industry so you can only imagine how that is going.  My job is secure, but part of my pay is based on bringing in the money and it just isn’t coming in as well as it used to.  Eric works at Sears and they are cutting hours, have frozen hiring, and sales there are just crap and it is even going into the holiday season.  We are really feeling the effects of the economy and it just sucks. 

I’ve been in a funk for a while and I just can’t shake it.  A couple of weeks ago, I broke down and talked to my primary doctor about anti-depressants.  I started one and it made me even hungrier and gave me horrible carb cravings.  So I stopped it already.  I see her again on Tuesday and hope to try something different.  I hate being on medication and feel like I should be able to hold it together on my own.  I can’t.  I hope she can help me.  I really need to get into a better mindset.

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Entry filed under: exercise, family, food, medical.

Another adjustment today OH MY GOD!

4 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Barbara  |  October 20, 2008 at 7:27 am

    Jaimie, don’t allow anything to ruin what you have accomplished already. You know eating isn’t going to help the economy or make things in your life better, it will only add to things being crappy. Just hold on tight, increase the exercising and continue getting through this plateu you are on. Remember that you are an inspiration to all of us that need to lose weight, please don’t fall, I’m sure things will turn around soon. Barbara

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  • 2. karli  |  October 21, 2008 at 1:27 am

    (((hugs)))

    hope things get rosier soon.

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  • 3. favorite  |  October 25, 2008 at 9:02 pm

    if you feel you need anti depressants i commend you for seeking help. i am on anti depressants after fighting not to go on them for years. i am so sorry i wasted all that time. they were the answer to my prayers and i can’t believe i let myself feel miserable for all that time. a friend of mine takes wellbutrin (sp?) and it is supposed to actually help with weight loss as well as depression. she also has a band and says they work great. as far as your weight loss goes, i don’t know anyone who has lost as much as you as quickly, so take the pause in stride.

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  • 4. Diz  |  October 27, 2008 at 2:01 pm

    We can’t always be strong…We can for awhile, then we need someone or something to lean on. These economic times are killers for most everyone. Congrats on the elliptical machine..I hear they’re tough, but will get your body tightened in no time. I think you’re focused on the right steps and taking the right turns. In no time at all, you’ll be on track. We’ll be here to bolster your spirits, just as you’ve done for us.

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